Last year around this time, I noticed various bloggers participating in what I thought was a great idea: choosing a single word and striving to work the ideas from that word into your daily life. Brilliant. The problem was, last year at this time I was just looking to survive. Privately, I guess I did adopt my own word for 2011, and it was endure. Since I’m here a year later I guess I did achieve just that, however I’m not so sure how well.
For the past couple months, I’ve been pondering this idea yet again and have decided that I will indeed participate again this year, but in a more public manner. Lots of thought went into deciding just what it is that I wanted to work on-there’s just so many options! After coming up with a word, I pondered it for even longer (why is it I just can’t make simple things simple I ask you?!). Yes…I believe that I’m onto something and am ‘officially’ proclaiming it (oh the pressure).
to begin or take up again; resume.
to restore or replenish: to renew a stock of goods.
to make, say, or do again.
to become new or as if new again
I also found it interesting that synonyms associated with renew include: re-create, rejuvenate, regenerate, reinstate, mend. Yes, yes and YES!
The past 2.5 years have been…..crazy. The results of that craziness have been wonderful, but it sure can wear a person out both physically and mentally. Yes, I need to renew myself, probably more mentally than anything. For the past few months I’ve been working on doing just that, but I think I’m just scratching the surface. Let’s see what 12 more months of renewing can do, shall we?
Now that my youngest daughter is back in school and my oldest daughter is working during the day, I’ve found myself with some extra time on my hands and wondering what to do with it. Quite the change from the past several years. Crazy! So, one beautiful morning I decided that Sadie and I were going to head out to enjoy the woods while summer was still hanging on. We have the great fortune of living about 2 minutes away from this.
I’ve come to realize that Sadie isn’t a spring chick anymore. She’s not the only one! This December she’ll be 9. These girls of mine are just growing up too fast! Anyways, spring chick or not, she thoroughly enjoyed herself, and we’ve decided to make it a habit. Can you blame us with the view?
Of course, there is the occasional stopping to smell the flowers along the way. Maybe even chase a squirrel or two.
Once we make it to the bridge, we usually stop to see the ducks and geese (need to remember to take some bread next time!), and then turn around and head back.
And now that I’ve got myself a smaller camera (versus my DSLR) to take along with me, we can capture all sorts of shots while we’re out and about.
Of course, Sadie would probably prefer that I refrain from taking these sort of pictures and focus instead on the trees and such.
Today I’m thankful for:
1. Birds singing
2. Good cookbooks
3. Corn stalks
i would love to tell you that during our year long “adventure”, i was the picture of grace and patience. i would then tell you that is a big fat lie! truthfully, it was one of the most emotionally trying times in my life, and i don’t care to repeat it, ever.
while unpacking and getting situated in this space of ours, i’m slowly starting to feel the tension and stress of it all slip away. i’ve also learned a valuable lesson (one of so many) through it all-don’t underestimate the ‘feeling’ of home.
the boxes are now torn down and disposed of, their contents scattered throughout and in just the right place (at least for now…). furniture has been arranged, only to be rearranged a few times more. we’ll get it right…there’s no hurry.
scads of treasures that were hid away way too long in storage have been rediscovered and appreciated all the more.
all together, in one place of our choosing, we can now begin to make new memories, and relish past ones.
it is so very good to finally be home.
still some things that need to be finished up( like maybe some grass, and where’s that set of shutters?), but at least we’re not living under the underpass. it feels so good to finally have a home again. now, onto picking up where i left off on my life a couple of years ago…. 😉
three years ago this may, i made the decision to act on a dream that i’ve had since i was 12 (that’s a long time ago, just in case you were wondering!). i had no idea what i was in for. determination and a whole lot of prayers was about the only things that got me through all of those hours of sitting through lectures, hundreds of hours of clinical time, and studying. nursing, and nursing school was nothing like i thought it would be.
during all of this, i also made a lot of changes in my personal life. again, not an easy (or comfortable) process at times. in looking back over the past 3 years, i can honestly say that the choices made were good ones and only proved to improve the person i am becoming. all of this sure has made me tired though!
now that i have a whole lot of extra time on my hands while i await taking my state boards, i’ve had time to do things that has been neglected for way too long: lunch dates, reading just for the heck of it, facials with friends. my creative brain has kicked into overdrive; i can’t get enough of fabric and brainstorming and working with needle and thread. i’m gorging myself on the domestic arts that i love so dearly but had to take a back seat for a time…and i’m not feeling even the slightest hint of guilt. 🙂
yes, it was a long road…a very long and sometimes rough road. i’m a better person for it all though, and i’m so glad that i found the courage to do it. 30 years of dreaming about it and 3 years of working my tail off, but i can now finally say “i’m a nurse”. 8)